Major, life altering realization. Self-discipline IS self care. I don’t mean the kind of discipline that involves berating yourself, or depriving yourself, or exerting a level of militaristic control over your life. I mean the choices you make when you’re faced with something that will make you feel good NOW (and most likely like shit later), and the choices that set you up to feel good… continuously. Instant gratification versus an actual lifestyle and mindset shift. See, I thought for a long time that “taking care of myself” meant getting my nails done once a week, or eating that extra cookie (or six), or binge-watching Netflix. I don’t judge us, I know you’ve been there too. But those things never worked for me in the long run, just started a spiral of instant gratification masquerading as, “feeling better.” What truly makes me feel better are the things that make me FEEL better, things that drive me forward instead of holding me stagnant. Meditating....
Fill a jar with sand, pebbles, and rocks- it only works if you put the big stuff in first. This is my journey of refilling my jar; learning to focus on the most important things as a priority while I let go of control and trust in the Universe that the rest will fall into place. This comes from a place of healing and love, and the hope that my struggles with physical and mental health can help someone else on their own journey.